Dis feeling.....

I hate being alone. When i say that people think i can't stay without being in a relationship. Why don't people look beyond the surface and read between the lines?

When i mean, "i hate being alone', i hate it when i have this feeling of, 'everyone's is gone and they left me behind' or me sitting alone doing nothing. The feeling of the walls closing in on you or the emptiness you see in a room scare the sh!t out of me. I used to be anorexic and during the winter holidays i started relapsing...because i was feeling alone.

Sometimes you can feel so alone in a crowd. Sometimes you can be having the time of your life and you suddenly realize that something is just wrong. Sometimes you can be so alone, tears cannot comfort you. I've felt so alone before, i went to the bathroom at intervals to cry. At that moment, you don't need a relationship to make you feel whole, you don't need friend to help you. You need to look within yourself and dig yourself out of that hole. It might be hard but once you do that, you won't feel so lonely anymore. The world you looked at with so much sadness and grief will turn into a happy place again.